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I'm not talking about immaturity, though immaturity could probably go hand in hand with this.
I'm talking about a concept where, even though you are of legal adult age, you still don't really feel like an adult. I've felt this way for most of my 20s. Even though I have been doing many things that adults typically do over the past decade, and even though the law has treated me like an adult over that time, I have still not felt completely grown up. Part of me has still felt like a teenager. When I stop and think about it, I think that's kind of odd, because when I really was a kid, I was often told I acted mature for my age. I think it might have something to do with the fact that I have always looked quite a bit younger than I really am, which has caused people to want to talk to me like a kid at times. Also, I'm one of those people who spent most of his twenties going to school and working in random menial jobs. Perhaps that has also played a role in me having a hard time feeling like a grown-up.
Shortly after I started my current job, a coworker came into the library while I was working. She was giving a prospective student a tour of the campus. While telling this student about the school, she pointed at me and said "And this man here is guywithashovel, and he is our librarian."
This may sound weird to some people, but the sheer fact that she referred to me as a man caught me off guard, though not in a bad way. Throughout most of my life up until then, when people referred to me by my gender, they would usually call me a "guy" or even a "boy." Also, this coworker was close to my age, so that kind of added to the surprise.
Once again, I'm not sure how many other people can relate to any of these feelings, and if you can't, this might sound strange. In any sense, maybe I'm finally starting to grow up.
I'm talking about a concept where, even though you are of legal adult age, you still don't really feel like an adult. I've felt this way for most of my 20s. Even though I have been doing many things that adults typically do over the past decade, and even though the law has treated me like an adult over that time, I have still not felt completely grown up. Part of me has still felt like a teenager. When I stop and think about it, I think that's kind of odd, because when I really was a kid, I was often told I acted mature for my age. I think it might have something to do with the fact that I have always looked quite a bit younger than I really am, which has caused people to want to talk to me like a kid at times. Also, I'm one of those people who spent most of his twenties going to school and working in random menial jobs. Perhaps that has also played a role in me having a hard time feeling like a grown-up.
Shortly after I started my current job, a coworker came into the library while I was working. She was giving a prospective student a tour of the campus. While telling this student about the school, she pointed at me and said "And this man here is guywithashovel, and he is our librarian."
This may sound weird to some people, but the sheer fact that she referred to me as a man caught me off guard, though not in a bad way. Throughout most of my life up until then, when people referred to me by my gender, they would usually call me a "guy" or even a "boy." Also, this coworker was close to my age, so that kind of added to the surprise.
Once again, I'm not sure how many other people can relate to any of these feelings, and if you can't, this might sound strange. In any sense, maybe I'm finally starting to grow up.
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