I just don't care anymore

[gremcint]

I used to care about my thesis but after working my ass off for a year and half of two jobs, schoolwork, thesis and taking care of my sick dad I took the summer off much to my eternal regret. I had to take some time off to let my wrists stop hurting, I now use wrist rests and braces to counteract this. I've been trying to drag myself bag into it but I just can't seem to get myself to focus on it for more than a couple hours a day. I can't back out because then I'll have wasted the last two years of my life and lose out on possible references but honestly I don't think I care about this project that much anymore. I look back on my all nighters and 14 hour work days and just can't find it in me right now. I am coming out of my rut but I never should have let myself get into it in the first place.

It's just I have a giant pile of work behind me and a giant pile of work ahead of me. I wish I had picked a different project for this but it's way too late for that.