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Its no secret that I hate a large amount of people. Most of them in my past. I can't let that go. I don't feel it's fair that they get to go through life unpunished for their deeds. I get alot of 'just let it go, its in the past!' Or 'Karma will meet up with them'. I don't belive in karma. I also been told that not all people are that bad. I can belive that. Its been proven to me.
Some of my friends hate everyone unless proven otherwise to not be hated. That brought me to do alot of thinking.
Do I hate people? Yes. But only the ones that ether do me wrong, or break one of my many rules of life. Granted I have a very narrowmind of whats right and wrong. But I do know that there are gray areas in life.
Basically, I can't bring myself to hate all people. Because it just isn't FAIR. I spent a good amount of my life being made fun of or beaten due to my looks, personality, even my name and status of wealth, so I know what its like to be unfairly targeted for no reason. Which sucks because that means that a large amount of people that I SHOULD hate, I don't. I'm going to give some examples.
CHILD MOLESTERS:
Ahh the big one up front. A victim of abuse myself, and the fact that.. well. I did it too. I was 12 at the time, and it was one of the biggest mistake I ever did in my life and something I still regret to this day. I didn't do anything other then looked and touched. She was 8?? Maybe 9 at the time? I don't remember. And I know I likely made some major enemies right now here. My family knew. Police knew. The mom of her had to tell them to back off, because despite how much anger she had at me, she didn't belive that I should go to jail or have a record over it, and they belived me when I didnt' do anything more then that. One of my friends has urges like that. But he doesn't DO anything. He never brings himself to be able to act on those urges he gets. He gets out by writing stories about that. He moved out of state to a far off place away from alot of people with his husband so that they don't get those urges. Because there are likely alot of people out there that get urges. The DIFFERENCE though, is they DON'T do or act on those urges. Its the ones that DO do it that I hate. The ones who act and rape and molest and kidnap and even murder. Those are the scum. The ones who don't act on those urges, don't put themselves in the position to do it, the ones who admit they have that flaw but don't do it, they aren't deserving of that kind of hate.
DRUG USERS:
Another major one. A good chunk of my family do drugs. My mom has. My dad has. Part of the reason my mom did everything in her power for me to never start even smoking cigs, because I just have that addictive gene, and the fact I do tend to go overboard on alot of things. The drug users I hate, and this could apply to alcole, are the ones that do everything they can for the drugs they want. Which means robbing. Murdering. Selling their kids toys. selling their kids. Making it so their family can't get food. My mom and stepdad both did meth. Alot of it. But guess what? I always had food. I always had toys. I always had a home with the exception of a very brief period of time, and that was by choice. And a key word is, I didn't know. I only really learned what they were doing when I turned 10 and mom told me. I honestly thought the adults were just playing a game with a boxcutter blade and a mirror that was in a box on parents dresser. If people have a drug problem, and don't want help, if they at the very least can control it to the point their family is taking care of, then I can't fault them for that. They at least can control it. If they can get help thats better. But I draw the line at causing their family to suffer over it more then they have too.
ROBBERS:
I've been robbed. Plenty of times. I've read stories of robbers. I hate the paperwork they make me have to do, but I can't hate all of them. One of my robbers was caught. The money he was robbing was to pay for kids medical bills. Not all robbers do it for the profit or joy. The ones I hate are the murderers. the ones that killed. They got the money. Why the fuck should they kill people over ten bucks. Those are the scum I hate.
BULLIES
... I'm pretty sure everyone knows my stance on them.
The point I guess I'm trying to make is, I just incapiable of hating everyone. There are good people out there. I've met alot of them in the recent years. As a victim of being made fun of my looks, I just can't hate all people for no reason other then the fact I been beaten or made fun of. That pretty hateful, and that kind of hate can consume one alot faster.
Am I capable of murder? I don't know. I nearly did on one from before middle school where I lost it and tried to strangle the sonofabitch after his constant smacking the back of my head with a basketball and the teacher telling me to just ignore it and he'll stop. (he didn't). I snapped and tried to strangle him. I got expelled and a good talking to from my mom. She got told that I did a hate crime and attacked someone based on his race. Mom didn't belive that word for one second. She belived my side, but just told me that if I need to defend myself, just leave the room. She'd rather deal with that then being told her son is a racist murderer.
PEOPLE WHO DON'T DO ANYTHING
There are quite a few of my friends who bitch and cry over everything. But don't do a damn thing to help themselves. Case in point, when I was in my first collage and the first of my friends would help each other out over homework giving. we tell each other answers we couldn't get, or try to explain it. One of the other students who we all found annoying. Especally after her very strange answer when I said "Hi" to my friend who she sat next to, and she turned to me "Sorry, I only date mexicans...". My friend snorted. I went "ok..." (she wasn't my type. Far too ... stupid..."). Anyway, she would come to us. Sigh. Cry. "Oh my god I'm going to fail, I didnt' do my homework!". we all look at her. "you have ten minutes. We can help you right now". She shake her head. "No its ok. I didn't do it. I don't know what to do"
Yes. We were offering her the answers. But she was just that lazy or stupid to not get write on the sheet in front of her with a pencil we were handing her. What was the point of her bitching?
I'm trying not to dislike my friend right now, who despite all my offers and attempts to help, doesn't want a job. He just happy crying and bitching over no job and no money, and no future. I really can't understand that.
POLITICS
Ahh that hot button. Everyone loves or hates politics. One of my friends is a die hard republican. We're all democrats. However, he doesn't talk to them about it, because everyone attacks HIM over that. The only one he does talk to about it, is to me, because we both agree and disagree on many different issues. He changed his mind on some things due to my speech, and vice versa. No-one else will even listen to his side. It's just "REPUBLICANS ARE SCUM AND SO ARE YOU!!" That is just so wrong on so many ways. So I don't hate people based on their political views. But a large chunk of people do. I can be open minded about that at least.
LOVED ONES:
I hate people that abuse their children or spouse. Be it emontional or physical. There are so many loving and caring people out there, that can't have kids due to medical issues. They have to adopt (and alot do). They bring up the kids with great love and respect. But there are parents out there, who regualy beat or abuse their children. Some even tell them they hate them. What fairness is that!? Why did they keep the kids even? Why do they have more?
Same with men and woman that beat and abuse their spouse. There are lonely men and woman out there that would love to have some kind of affections. I do get that it can be the spouse fault for staying in that kind of relationship, but I've learned over the years that alot of them are kept in fear. Or restrained. Or a million other factors that no-one can see or understand. Love is a pretty powerful emontion that I hope to get one day. But there are still people out there. that just don't care they have someone who loves them. Its nothing to them. It's no different to them then a rain drop falling on them. They just don't get how lucky they are. That pisses me off the most.
I would die for my family. I would die for my friends. I would even die for a good chunk of my customers and classmates.
I cannot hate all people. I can only hate the scum that do terrible things, or stupid things. It isn't fair to just hate everyone when they haven't done anything. But I do have friends that refuses to go out. They just stay in their rooms and just sulk of how much they hate everyone.
I hated it when people hated me based on my looks and such. It not fair to hate people who in fact haven't don aynthing warrent being hated for.
What about people here? Do you hate everyone? All people? What are your buttons that people push that makes one label all people that od that scum and wrothy of being hated?
Some of my friends hate everyone unless proven otherwise to not be hated. That brought me to do alot of thinking.
Do I hate people? Yes. But only the ones that ether do me wrong, or break one of my many rules of life. Granted I have a very narrowmind of whats right and wrong. But I do know that there are gray areas in life.
Basically, I can't bring myself to hate all people. Because it just isn't FAIR. I spent a good amount of my life being made fun of or beaten due to my looks, personality, even my name and status of wealth, so I know what its like to be unfairly targeted for no reason. Which sucks because that means that a large amount of people that I SHOULD hate, I don't. I'm going to give some examples.
CHILD MOLESTERS:
Ahh the big one up front. A victim of abuse myself, and the fact that.. well. I did it too. I was 12 at the time, and it was one of the biggest mistake I ever did in my life and something I still regret to this day. I didn't do anything other then looked and touched. She was 8?? Maybe 9 at the time? I don't remember. And I know I likely made some major enemies right now here. My family knew. Police knew. The mom of her had to tell them to back off, because despite how much anger she had at me, she didn't belive that I should go to jail or have a record over it, and they belived me when I didnt' do anything more then that. One of my friends has urges like that. But he doesn't DO anything. He never brings himself to be able to act on those urges he gets. He gets out by writing stories about that. He moved out of state to a far off place away from alot of people with his husband so that they don't get those urges. Because there are likely alot of people out there that get urges. The DIFFERENCE though, is they DON'T do or act on those urges. Its the ones that DO do it that I hate. The ones who act and rape and molest and kidnap and even murder. Those are the scum. The ones who don't act on those urges, don't put themselves in the position to do it, the ones who admit they have that flaw but don't do it, they aren't deserving of that kind of hate.
DRUG USERS:
Another major one. A good chunk of my family do drugs. My mom has. My dad has. Part of the reason my mom did everything in her power for me to never start even smoking cigs, because I just have that addictive gene, and the fact I do tend to go overboard on alot of things. The drug users I hate, and this could apply to alcole, are the ones that do everything they can for the drugs they want. Which means robbing. Murdering. Selling their kids toys. selling their kids. Making it so their family can't get food. My mom and stepdad both did meth. Alot of it. But guess what? I always had food. I always had toys. I always had a home with the exception of a very brief period of time, and that was by choice. And a key word is, I didn't know. I only really learned what they were doing when I turned 10 and mom told me. I honestly thought the adults were just playing a game with a boxcutter blade and a mirror that was in a box on parents dresser. If people have a drug problem, and don't want help, if they at the very least can control it to the point their family is taking care of, then I can't fault them for that. They at least can control it. If they can get help thats better. But I draw the line at causing their family to suffer over it more then they have too.
ROBBERS:
I've been robbed. Plenty of times. I've read stories of robbers. I hate the paperwork they make me have to do, but I can't hate all of them. One of my robbers was caught. The money he was robbing was to pay for kids medical bills. Not all robbers do it for the profit or joy. The ones I hate are the murderers. the ones that killed. They got the money. Why the fuck should they kill people over ten bucks. Those are the scum I hate.
BULLIES
... I'm pretty sure everyone knows my stance on them.
The point I guess I'm trying to make is, I just incapiable of hating everyone. There are good people out there. I've met alot of them in the recent years. As a victim of being made fun of my looks, I just can't hate all people for no reason other then the fact I been beaten or made fun of. That pretty hateful, and that kind of hate can consume one alot faster.
Am I capable of murder? I don't know. I nearly did on one from before middle school where I lost it and tried to strangle the sonofabitch after his constant smacking the back of my head with a basketball and the teacher telling me to just ignore it and he'll stop. (he didn't). I snapped and tried to strangle him. I got expelled and a good talking to from my mom. She got told that I did a hate crime and attacked someone based on his race. Mom didn't belive that word for one second. She belived my side, but just told me that if I need to defend myself, just leave the room. She'd rather deal with that then being told her son is a racist murderer.
PEOPLE WHO DON'T DO ANYTHING
There are quite a few of my friends who bitch and cry over everything. But don't do a damn thing to help themselves. Case in point, when I was in my first collage and the first of my friends would help each other out over homework giving. we tell each other answers we couldn't get, or try to explain it. One of the other students who we all found annoying. Especally after her very strange answer when I said "Hi" to my friend who she sat next to, and she turned to me "Sorry, I only date mexicans...". My friend snorted. I went "ok..." (she wasn't my type. Far too ... stupid..."). Anyway, she would come to us. Sigh. Cry. "Oh my god I'm going to fail, I didnt' do my homework!". we all look at her. "you have ten minutes. We can help you right now". She shake her head. "No its ok. I didn't do it. I don't know what to do"
Yes. We were offering her the answers. But she was just that lazy or stupid to not get write on the sheet in front of her with a pencil we were handing her. What was the point of her bitching?
I'm trying not to dislike my friend right now, who despite all my offers and attempts to help, doesn't want a job. He just happy crying and bitching over no job and no money, and no future. I really can't understand that.
POLITICS
Ahh that hot button. Everyone loves or hates politics. One of my friends is a die hard republican. We're all democrats. However, he doesn't talk to them about it, because everyone attacks HIM over that. The only one he does talk to about it, is to me, because we both agree and disagree on many different issues. He changed his mind on some things due to my speech, and vice versa. No-one else will even listen to his side. It's just "REPUBLICANS ARE SCUM AND SO ARE YOU!!" That is just so wrong on so many ways. So I don't hate people based on their political views. But a large chunk of people do. I can be open minded about that at least.
LOVED ONES:
I hate people that abuse their children or spouse. Be it emontional or physical. There are so many loving and caring people out there, that can't have kids due to medical issues. They have to adopt (and alot do). They bring up the kids with great love and respect. But there are parents out there, who regualy beat or abuse their children. Some even tell them they hate them. What fairness is that!? Why did they keep the kids even? Why do they have more?
Same with men and woman that beat and abuse their spouse. There are lonely men and woman out there that would love to have some kind of affections. I do get that it can be the spouse fault for staying in that kind of relationship, but I've learned over the years that alot of them are kept in fear. Or restrained. Or a million other factors that no-one can see or understand. Love is a pretty powerful emontion that I hope to get one day. But there are still people out there. that just don't care they have someone who loves them. Its nothing to them. It's no different to them then a rain drop falling on them. They just don't get how lucky they are. That pisses me off the most.
I would die for my family. I would die for my friends. I would even die for a good chunk of my customers and classmates.
I cannot hate all people. I can only hate the scum that do terrible things, or stupid things. It isn't fair to just hate everyone when they haven't done anything. But I do have friends that refuses to go out. They just stay in their rooms and just sulk of how much they hate everyone.
I hated it when people hated me based on my looks and such. It not fair to hate people who in fact haven't don aynthing warrent being hated for.
What about people here? Do you hate everyone? All people? What are your buttons that people push that makes one label all people that od that scum and wrothy of being hated?
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