Seriously, every day I grow to hate this state more. Our legislature is bound and determined to make sure this is the most backwards state in the country... they actually put forth an effort to make sure it is legal to fire someone for being gay... because of course we wouldn't want business owners to be forced to support a lifestyle they don't approve of (yet I bet if I owned a business and refused to hire mormons because I didn't agree with their lifestyle our legislature would raise holy hell over my blatant discrimination )
The people of this state are no better... we had a representative on the floor make a comment "this bill is as ugly as a black baby"... he got reelected by a huge margin... as far as I'm concerned, that means that the people of this state at the very least condone his racism, and are probably racists themselves.
As far as I know only two of my coworkers know I"m gay (it's not a topic that comes up at work very often)... the others give me such great tidbits of information.
Things like one coworker complaining that she kept getting scheduled for sunday when she was the only employee who goes to church Sunday and is religious... I pointed out that I attend church regularly... her response "but you mentioned you were trying to leave the church"... the fact that there is more than one church on this planet evaded her... oh, and this other tidbit "well, you go to the Methodist church... attendance there isn't as important as it is for mormons"... umm, excuse me? Did I hear you correctly? My desire to go to church is less valid than yours just because I'm going to a different church?
This is the same coworker, referring to Adam Lambert, "I bet you he's just acting gay to get attention"... ok... I might believe that... then followed it up with "I hate all the guys who act all flamboyant and gay just to get attention". And then proved just how much of a Utahn she is "yeah, I just could believe it when I found out (coworker) is gay... I mean, he seems so normal"... yes, according to Utahn's homosexuals can't be 'normal'... we must be Will from Will and Grace. Yes, it is ok to be gay as long as we don't flaunt it or bring attention to ourselves... did I mention that she recently had her hair bleached to beach blond... oh, it looks like it belongs on a barby doll... and that isn't to draw attention to yourself... hypocritical bitch.
Oh, and while I'm bitching about the dominant religion... they're lovely stranglehold on the government... because the church has convinced the legislature that we the people don't know what is good for us we have one of the biggest nanny states ever... we're told that drinking is bad so to buy alcohol we will do you a favor and make it as hard to purchase as we can legally do... we're told that we don't know how to spend our money, so the state will protect us by making any form of gambling (even poker night at a friends house) illegal... to protect the citizenship... hell, the state has even put requirement in how restaurants are laid out to ensure that the innocent children don't see liquor bottles. Oh, and don't be afraid to buy food in this state... even the person at the movie theater scooping popcorn, or the guy at the food court serving sno cones, or even the guy at 7-11 should technically have a food handlers permit (at least in Cache county they do... not sure if it's the same in salt lake)... and speaking of... the health departments have so little respect for us, in Davis county there are signs from the health department reminding you that it is not advised to eat food in the restroom.
While I'm ranting... let's point out that Salt Lake has the 6th worst air quality in the country, our transit system is a bad joke (ironic, considering that is something that could help with our air quality problems). This city truly is an 8-5 monday through friday only city... half the businesses aren't even open sunday, and those that are all have very limited hours. If you work graveyard shift in this city, shopping isn't just an inconvenient chore... it requires you to often times adjust your sleep schedule...
And if I may take this way into fratching territory.
There are only two outcomes of living in Utah... you either become a kool aide drinking, follow the prophet, mormon (who sees nothing wrong with supporting yes on H8, but it's ok, you think gays should have equal protections... unless oh God, you're actually going to ask us to provide those protections... didn't you know we were just saying that to shut you up), or you become an empty bitter shell (ok, so the mormons are empty shells, but they at least think they are happy).
As far as social/love life is concerned, my options are 1. random craigslist hookups (yay, I could be the next victim of the next craigslist killer), 2. find someone who will settle for you as the best of limited options, and settle for them being the best of limited options... in a metro area of 2.1 million, over 50% of those being mormons, so really a metro area of about 1 million (for the statistics I'll be using), normally you'd expect 50-100k LGBT... however, the smart LGBT stay the hell away from utah, so, cut that number in half at least... I'm looking for a single guy, who is even vaguely compatible, and there is only a pool of 25-50k to find that person, and I'll have to spot them with 2.1 million people around them, half of which I have to hide who I'm looking for from... needle in a haystack doesn't even begin to describe it. At least in Reno I could expect the same number size of pool, except their they are only dispersed among half a million people, and in Reno I don't have to worry as much about who knows I'm gay.
I'll be perfectly honest... this place is my own personal hell... my mother doesn't believe me when I've said the only thing that would be needed to push me over the edge far enough to consider suicide would be to fail a class and face having to spend another year in this state... God, I want nothing more than to get out. I can only pretend to be happy and loving life for so long... sadly, that is exactly what I need to stay employed... that's my only chance of ever actually getting friends who may make it not be an act... but it's so fucking hard to do when I wake up everyday and face the reality that I am in hell.
The people of this state are no better... we had a representative on the floor make a comment "this bill is as ugly as a black baby"... he got reelected by a huge margin... as far as I'm concerned, that means that the people of this state at the very least condone his racism, and are probably racists themselves.
As far as I know only two of my coworkers know I"m gay (it's not a topic that comes up at work very often)... the others give me such great tidbits of information.
Things like one coworker complaining that she kept getting scheduled for sunday when she was the only employee who goes to church Sunday and is religious... I pointed out that I attend church regularly... her response "but you mentioned you were trying to leave the church"... the fact that there is more than one church on this planet evaded her... oh, and this other tidbit "well, you go to the Methodist church... attendance there isn't as important as it is for mormons"... umm, excuse me? Did I hear you correctly? My desire to go to church is less valid than yours just because I'm going to a different church?
This is the same coworker, referring to Adam Lambert, "I bet you he's just acting gay to get attention"... ok... I might believe that... then followed it up with "I hate all the guys who act all flamboyant and gay just to get attention". And then proved just how much of a Utahn she is "yeah, I just could believe it when I found out (coworker) is gay... I mean, he seems so normal"... yes, according to Utahn's homosexuals can't be 'normal'... we must be Will from Will and Grace. Yes, it is ok to be gay as long as we don't flaunt it or bring attention to ourselves... did I mention that she recently had her hair bleached to beach blond... oh, it looks like it belongs on a barby doll... and that isn't to draw attention to yourself... hypocritical bitch.
Oh, and while I'm bitching about the dominant religion... they're lovely stranglehold on the government... because the church has convinced the legislature that we the people don't know what is good for us we have one of the biggest nanny states ever... we're told that drinking is bad so to buy alcohol we will do you a favor and make it as hard to purchase as we can legally do... we're told that we don't know how to spend our money, so the state will protect us by making any form of gambling (even poker night at a friends house) illegal... to protect the citizenship... hell, the state has even put requirement in how restaurants are laid out to ensure that the innocent children don't see liquor bottles. Oh, and don't be afraid to buy food in this state... even the person at the movie theater scooping popcorn, or the guy at the food court serving sno cones, or even the guy at 7-11 should technically have a food handlers permit (at least in Cache county they do... not sure if it's the same in salt lake)... and speaking of... the health departments have so little respect for us, in Davis county there are signs from the health department reminding you that it is not advised to eat food in the restroom.
While I'm ranting... let's point out that Salt Lake has the 6th worst air quality in the country, our transit system is a bad joke (ironic, considering that is something that could help with our air quality problems). This city truly is an 8-5 monday through friday only city... half the businesses aren't even open sunday, and those that are all have very limited hours. If you work graveyard shift in this city, shopping isn't just an inconvenient chore... it requires you to often times adjust your sleep schedule...
And if I may take this way into fratching territory.
There are only two outcomes of living in Utah... you either become a kool aide drinking, follow the prophet, mormon (who sees nothing wrong with supporting yes on H8, but it's ok, you think gays should have equal protections... unless oh God, you're actually going to ask us to provide those protections... didn't you know we were just saying that to shut you up), or you become an empty bitter shell (ok, so the mormons are empty shells, but they at least think they are happy).
As far as social/love life is concerned, my options are 1. random craigslist hookups (yay, I could be the next victim of the next craigslist killer), 2. find someone who will settle for you as the best of limited options, and settle for them being the best of limited options... in a metro area of 2.1 million, over 50% of those being mormons, so really a metro area of about 1 million (for the statistics I'll be using), normally you'd expect 50-100k LGBT... however, the smart LGBT stay the hell away from utah, so, cut that number in half at least... I'm looking for a single guy, who is even vaguely compatible, and there is only a pool of 25-50k to find that person, and I'll have to spot them with 2.1 million people around them, half of which I have to hide who I'm looking for from... needle in a haystack doesn't even begin to describe it. At least in Reno I could expect the same number size of pool, except their they are only dispersed among half a million people, and in Reno I don't have to worry as much about who knows I'm gay.
I'll be perfectly honest... this place is my own personal hell... my mother doesn't believe me when I've said the only thing that would be needed to push me over the edge far enough to consider suicide would be to fail a class and face having to spend another year in this state... God, I want nothing more than to get out. I can only pretend to be happy and loving life for so long... sadly, that is exactly what I need to stay employed... that's my only chance of ever actually getting friends who may make it not be an act... but it's so fucking hard to do when I wake up everyday and face the reality that I am in hell.
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