Not Being a Good Parent

[SorryIsGoodEnough]

Most of the time, I think I'm a good parent. It's a little more difficult for me because of my bipolar and social anxiety, but I like being a mother. It's nights like tonight, however, that make me wonder if I should just call CPS on myself and be done with it.

At daycare, my 2 year old daughter has learned to bite, scratch, hit, and pinch. Tonight, while cuddling, she randomly grabbed my face and pinched it right by my eye until it bled.

I tried to put her in time out, but she got up and bit my thighs. I tried to cuddle with her again on the bed, and she started biting and scratching my face, and then my hands and arms when I tried to shield my eyes. I rolled over onto my stomach to hide, and she bit my back.

My mouth tastes like blood from when she was scratching my face and managed to rip some skin out of my lip.

I didn't know what to do. I don't want to restrain her too forcefully and bruise her. I don't want to lock her in a room since there is no 100% childproof room in the apartment. I couldn't hide, I couldn't punish her...

And since I couldn't think of what to do in a crisis like that, I think I am unfit to be a mother. I can't teach her coping skills and she'll be a horrible person if I'm a horrible mother.

[tabbyblack13]

If you daughter learned to bite, scratch, hit, and pinch at daycare then you need to talk to your daycare provider. If another kid is doing it to her then it needs to stop. I also think you need to talk to a physiologist about what you need to do to teach your daughter not to do that behavior anymore and to help you be able to cope when it get difficult.

It can be frustrating when a child acts out like that but understand that you are not alone with dealing with bad behavior like hers. It might take some time to stop it but it will be worth it in the end.