Ok I am the youngest... the only girl.. and I guess the "good" child.. I call and write often.. I make sure to call on all holidays and bdays... How ever I am the uncaring mean nasty omg you abandoned your family because you moved...
There is a reason that I live across the country from my family, namely that the cost of living is better, hubby has a better job, makes more and is in line for a nice promotion.
But all I get is guilt that I am sooooooooo far away.. and I mean that the guilt trip is the epic it could be from the stereotyped Jewish mother type of guilt trip.
And of course with my disability I sit here half pissed and half thinking I am the worst daughter in the world... because I dont pack up and move next to my mother. le sigh. I mean seriously wtf... I know they are older.. I know one day they wont be here... but I am suppose to drop everything that I have finally got, to go move back to the other side of the country so that I can be a good daughter???
The reason that the guilt works so well is I was raised very old school/ old world style. Family is Family no matter what... you can hate them with all the passion of a thousand fiery suns but you stand behind them.
Frack this annoys me to no end.. and because of my upbringing I can not tell my folks to take a long walk off a short pier.. that is disrespectful. God damn it.. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg
There is a reason that I live across the country from my family, namely that the cost of living is better, hubby has a better job, makes more and is in line for a nice promotion.
But all I get is guilt that I am sooooooooo far away.. and I mean that the guilt trip is the epic it could be from the stereotyped Jewish mother type of guilt trip.
And of course with my disability I sit here half pissed and half thinking I am the worst daughter in the world... because I dont pack up and move next to my mother. le sigh. I mean seriously wtf... I know they are older.. I know one day they wont be here... but I am suppose to drop everything that I have finally got, to go move back to the other side of the country so that I can be a good daughter???
The reason that the guilt works so well is I was raised very old school/ old world style. Family is Family no matter what... you can hate them with all the passion of a thousand fiery suns but you stand behind them.
Frack this annoys me to no end.. and because of my upbringing I can not tell my folks to take a long walk off a short pier.. that is disrespectful. God damn it.. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg
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