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Since I was 5, I had been very active. Played soccer from 5-13 years old. Played basketball and baseball from 5-11 years old. Played football from 13-16 years old. Lifted weights for football for three years. I ran a 7 minute mile freshman year of high school (damn good for me, I'm a slow mofo). By junior year, I was able to bench 205 lbs, squat almost 500 lbs, do tons of sit ups, etc. Going out of high school, I weighed 165 lbs and I was maybe around 19-20% body fat.
Just graduated college. With no football, I had no motivation to get in the gym. I hate running. I had VERY few guy friends so I had no one to lift with (no offense ladies, but I'm not going to ask a woman who probably would have a lot of trouble with just the bar to spot me benching even my 135 lbs warm-ups [aka all my female friends]). I weigh 190-197 lbs varying from day to day. I just did sit ups for the first time in forever; managed 10 in a row. Did 20 push ups in a row before it got tough. I'm sure the drinking doesn't help nor does not having access to good food (I, for the life of me, cannot stomach most vegetables. Carrots, string beans, green beans, and sometimes broccoli are the only ones I can stomach). Though I do walk to my internship there and back twice a day which is roughly a mile total. I'm now standing for 7 hours a day so that burns some calories.
But this is embarrassing. I've grown a small chest and not the muscly kind. I went from a 32 waist to a 36. I wouldn't mind weighing 190 lbs if it was muscle but it's not. I get mad self-conscious when I put on nice shirts because it makes my chest look bigger which makes me depressed. Sometimes it gets to the point where I skip meals because it means I won't take in so many calories in the day. I've eliminated the majority of snacking by not buying crap. If I don't buy junk food, I can't eat junk food. I just can't motivate myself to really exercise which is the main thing I need to do if I want to lose weight. Cutting down on calories is great but if I don't exercise, I'm not losing calories anyway.
Just graduated college. With no football, I had no motivation to get in the gym. I hate running. I had VERY few guy friends so I had no one to lift with (no offense ladies, but I'm not going to ask a woman who probably would have a lot of trouble with just the bar to spot me benching even my 135 lbs warm-ups [aka all my female friends]). I weigh 190-197 lbs varying from day to day. I just did sit ups for the first time in forever; managed 10 in a row. Did 20 push ups in a row before it got tough. I'm sure the drinking doesn't help nor does not having access to good food (I, for the life of me, cannot stomach most vegetables. Carrots, string beans, green beans, and sometimes broccoli are the only ones I can stomach). Though I do walk to my internship there and back twice a day which is roughly a mile total. I'm now standing for 7 hours a day so that burns some calories.
But this is embarrassing. I've grown a small chest and not the muscly kind. I went from a 32 waist to a 36. I wouldn't mind weighing 190 lbs if it was muscle but it's not. I get mad self-conscious when I put on nice shirts because it makes my chest look bigger which makes me depressed. Sometimes it gets to the point where I skip meals because it means I won't take in so many calories in the day. I've eliminated the majority of snacking by not buying crap. If I don't buy junk food, I can't eat junk food. I just can't motivate myself to really exercise which is the main thing I need to do if I want to lose weight. Cutting down on calories is great but if I don't exercise, I'm not losing calories anyway.
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