Being stuck in this god forsaken place!

[muses_nightmare]

I know *exactly* the kind of northern BC town she's referring too. "Fucked up" isn't quite the term for it. They're just very small, close knit, in the middle of the farkin' mountains and usually based around one specific industry. They're also real dead ends because they're just not large enough to have or require a lot of jobs.

Sounds like my hometown, though it may be a bit bigger than wherever kiwi is, the whole based around one industry is pretty true. Well it was until the mills closed.

The whole, "have babies because there's nothing else to do" is very true there too, and girls start around age 16 or so. I know at least 5 different people my age or younger (I'm 24), with 2 or more kids, and these aren't babies anymore, some are 6-7 years old. I'm glad I managed to avoid that whole situation growing up.

[TaurusGirl]

Substitute Northern Manitoba for Northern BC, and you have my situation exactly!

I don't have much advice to offer, except DO talk to your BF about it; chances are he knows that you're not happy, and talking about it may help. While there likely isn't anything he can do to change the situation at this time, just having the support makes a big difference.

I very recently (as in Monday of this week) fell into a job at the one store in town, the grocery/convenience/gas station. This week did go by a bit faster than most, but only just barely. Here's hoping that you can get in somewhere to at least help the time pass

[SkullKing]

The Idea of learning a Craft is very good

What was your previous job? what Skills do you have?

What did you use to do in your free time before moving there?

Do you have any hobbies?

You mentioned reading a lot, have you thought about writing, or creating a review blog? It can occupy your time, and even may bring is some admoney.

It is not for everyone, but one thing that helped me keep in touch with my friends that moved far away was on-line gaming.(Both electronic games and Internet-based Pen and Paper RPG)

[blas87]

You're not being a spoiled brat at all. You have every right to hate where you are.

If there were still snow on the ground here, I'd be screaming so loud, the whole world would be hearing me.

[kiwi]

We finally had a sunny weekend so my spirits are up. We spent both days it was sunny outside for a good 10 hours just soaking up as much vitamin D as possible that helped a lot. It sucks when you feel grey and miserable and the weather matches your mood.

We have a major shortfall in our cashflow coming up in the next few weeks so we are praying the bank will come through with a line of credit to keep the house of cards from tumbling down so to speak. 12 weeks until our financial problems are 90% over, Im just praying we can make it through that long.
The BF has a chance to be moved in October so today I am making a poster with a countdown for that, at least it will give me something to do each day to remind myself this isn't forever. 14th of September, I just have to get through until then.

Thank you for all the supportive comments, I do feel like Im being a big baby about this, I just feel so dissapointed that we got ourselves into this situation.

[kiwi]

I just wanted to let you guys know I am doing a little better. I have to go back to Van in 3 weeks to finish up some stuff down there so it has been a beaken of civilisation for me. The BF goes to the bank tomorrow to see about the loan so fingers crossed for that, now that its only 117 days to get through until we don't need financial help anymore it's kind of like a weight has been lifted. Even if we can't make a couple of payments they won't take us to collections before we can catch up.

I have talked to the BF and even put my foot down on some financial things he says we "need" that we really don't. I also said no to a new computer for him and toned down his lofty christmas plans. They just arn't going to happen. We need to accept that.

I spent the week making charts and posters with our situation so each time we leave the house we DONT spend money. Overall the sword of damaclues doesn't feel so close anymore. I just need to hold on for 100 or so more days. I can do that.