Announcement

Collapse
No announcement yet.

Ugh...time to fake it...

Collapse
X
Collapse
 
  • Page of 1
  • Filter
  • Time
  • Show
Clear All
new posts
Previous template Next
  • #1

    Ugh...time to fake it...

    I always feel so awkward at big christmas gatherings. ESPECIALLY when it's gift giving time, and every gift that comes out is a spectacle to behold. And everyone stares at you. And the awkwardness and social nervousness overrides what christmas spirit I'm feeling and it makes me...rather dead inside.

    I just sort of go into turtle shell mode. And then there's nothing. It's not that I'm unhappy. I'm totally happy and cool. It's just all on the inside. And then when a gift comes to me, even though I love it, I don't really feel like jumping for joy and exclaiming how awesome it is. Even though it's probably awesome, and I appireciate the thought and all that jazz, I just don't really have a good way of showing it.

    So...I fake it. Big smiles, merry christmases and thank yous, and I do pretty good, but eventually my face starts to hurt from the smiling. Again...I'm not a scrooge! I just have a hard time showing stuff, and christmas is always extremely draining.
    Tags: None
  • #2
    Is your name Dexter?

    Comment

    • #3
      I honestly think you need to get tested for whatever it is that you have. Whether it's clinical depression, some flavor of autism...

      ^-.-^
      Faith is about what you do. It's about aspiring to be better and nobler and kinder than you are. It's about making sacrifices for the good of others. - Dresden

      Comment

      • #4
        Even if he got tested for autism it wouldn't be conclusive.....I got tested for asperger's and basically don't know if I have it or not.

        But I feel the same way he does about social situations.
        https://www.youtube.com/user/HedgeTV
        Great YouTube channel check it out!

        Comment

        • #5
          Yeah I'm pretty sure I have a lot wrong with me...some depression, some anxiety, and while i've never had any real conclusive tests, a couple doctors have told me I might have a "slight touch" of autism.

          Comment

          • #6
            I took acting classes as a kid and now I can show all the emotions with ease. Some books might also help so it takes less effort. Now social gatherings are like putting on a play for me (but I still need a lot of time in the dressing room to recharge)
            "So, my little Zillians... Have your fun, as long as I let you have fun... but don't forget who is the boss!"
            We are contented, because he says we are
            He really meant it when he says we've come so far

            Comment

            • #7
              Social situations are generally draining for me. I don't have social anxiety or anything of that nature, but I prefer small gatherings with family or a few close friends if I am around others at all. Most times, I kind of prefer the quiet and solitude of alone time so I can think and do my own thing. Sometimes I'm accused of being anti-social because I don't always join in the conversation or otherwise participate in the group, but I'm content to be a spectator. Actually, not only do I prefer being somewhat of a loner, I tend to become moody and irritable if I feel like others are constantly demanding my time and attention.

              Comment

              Previous template Next
              Working...
              X