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My current job at the library is just an on call job as a page. I stock carts, shelve books, occasionally interact with patrons, and at the end of the day, clean up. And that's just when one of the employees calls in sick. So as you can tell, I don't get to work much.
Which is why it blows me away when my managers (and a few coworkers) act like this job is a huge privilege and that they're being generous in giving me any hours at all. I do the job like I'm told and even my review said I perform most of my duties well.
But you wouldn't get that from the way my manager acted. She basically said that if I don't improve in those areas, I'm out of there. When I mentioned that I haven't had many shifts and have often gone MONTHS without any at all, she acknowledged that, but also said that they hold all employees, even on call ones, to the same standard (bullshit!). I said that I've improved in many areas and while I still need to ask for procedure in certain situations, if I get more hours, I will eventually be proficient in all areas. She actually said that 'eventually' was the problem. I should be good at all this now since I've being retrained (my first full work week since training which I wasn't even done with at that time). She also said that the other on call employees have no problem meeting the standard that I apparently failed to meet (O RLY?).
So while I haven't been fired yet and still have some hours I'm working in a couple of weeks, I'm royally pissed off at the way I'm being treated. I haven't even been given much of a chance to work (50-60 hours over one year) so I'd think they'd take that into account. Though my manager did recognize that and gave me the retraining (when I really just needed more hours), she acted like she was being generous in giving me the retraining and would bring it up every time I mentioned how I've improved. At first, I was sad because I thought I wasn't good enough to do a simple job, but upon thinking about it, I see that's it not me that's the problem, it's them and their bullshit. And now I'm just pissed.
TLDR: I'm sick of management doublespeak and how they vastly over estimate the importance of both of our jobs. I'm sick of the mentality that employers are being generous in even giving you a job no matter how little it pays (it's a two way streak pal). And I'm just sick of the job in general. While I still do the best I can, I've reached the point where if I'm fired, than so be it.
Which is why it blows me away when my managers (and a few coworkers) act like this job is a huge privilege and that they're being generous in giving me any hours at all. I do the job like I'm told and even my review said I perform most of my duties well.
But you wouldn't get that from the way my manager acted. She basically said that if I don't improve in those areas, I'm out of there. When I mentioned that I haven't had many shifts and have often gone MONTHS without any at all, she acknowledged that, but also said that they hold all employees, even on call ones, to the same standard (bullshit!). I said that I've improved in many areas and while I still need to ask for procedure in certain situations, if I get more hours, I will eventually be proficient in all areas. She actually said that 'eventually' was the problem. I should be good at all this now since I've being retrained (my first full work week since training which I wasn't even done with at that time). She also said that the other on call employees have no problem meeting the standard that I apparently failed to meet (O RLY?).
So while I haven't been fired yet and still have some hours I'm working in a couple of weeks, I'm royally pissed off at the way I'm being treated. I haven't even been given much of a chance to work (50-60 hours over one year) so I'd think they'd take that into account. Though my manager did recognize that and gave me the retraining (when I really just needed more hours), she acted like she was being generous in giving me the retraining and would bring it up every time I mentioned how I've improved. At first, I was sad because I thought I wasn't good enough to do a simple job, but upon thinking about it, I see that's it not me that's the problem, it's them and their bullshit. And now I'm just pissed.
TLDR: I'm sick of management doublespeak and how they vastly over estimate the importance of both of our jobs. I'm sick of the mentality that employers are being generous in even giving you a job no matter how little it pays (it's a two way streak pal). And I'm just sick of the job in general. While I still do the best I can, I've reached the point where if I'm fired, than so be it.
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